So I'm a wee bit disappointed

Mostly just in myself.
I mean, blaming small towns and not being able to go anywhere
without the aid of someone else's car aside, I'm disappointed.
I've been on this world for 15 years and I have absolutely nothing to show for it!
I have good grades, awesome friends, a lot of confidence in myself, and nothing in my life is terribly horrible but seriously...I have yet to do anything that's incredibly special
Every time I start to get somewhere with something, I get bored and give it up.
Which, needless to say, is not a good quality to have.

I've spent far too many days doing nothing except surfing the web and watching pointless television. I have big dreams but doing nothing to reach them.
Basically this is just a self-motivation blog.
I need to stop being lazy and actually do something.
I'm quite tired of feeling unimportant and boring.
and I'm tired of cleaning the house EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! no house is THAT dirty!!!!!

When exactly do the "best years" of my life start??
Yeah, I'm 15 and I've been told that this is my time to do nothing buuut I know people who already famous fashion designers at my age!
Ughh...I'm tired of feeling horrible

Here's a challenge for you...

put down your teeny fashion magazines and strip away your limitations.
For just a second about forget looking cool and trying to impress your crush.

I love teenagers. How awkward we all are
and how we think our tiniest problems are going to END THE WORLD.
One thing I don't particularly like is how boring we have all become.
Sure, it's been drilled in your head since the day you were born that there
is a "certain way" you must look, dress, act, talk if you ever plan to get anywhere in life but can we just forget about all that for a minute?

I'm NOT talking about being original. I am not provoking everyone go out and completely bombard the city and go against everything they know.
My point is the lack of personality we have.
What happened to good ole fashioned creativity? Have we been completely brainwashed into what the media says we SHOULD do?
What happened to laughing till you cried and stomping the bleachers to death during "We Will Rock You" ??
orrr uhh whatever the name of that song is...

For one second of your life
say how you actually feel, not what people tell you you should be saying.
Go out and play in the rain and show some courtesy to those around you (being a jerk is definitely not flattering. No matter what people say)
Tell a cheesy joke, listen to an unsigned band, be nice to the nerd everyone hates for no reason, ect.
Have fun and live life instead of sitting on your butt fantasizing about the things you could be doing.

=]

Freshman year.

After more camping trips than I can count, several visits to weird run-down towns, and far too many encounters with people who think "pull my finger" is the funniest thing in the world, I am finally the person I've always wanted to be.
I guess I could also thank high school for that. It truly does change you whether you notice it or not. Luckily, it changed me for the better (in my opinion).
Freshman year is 5 days from coming to an end. In the past school year I've met so many amazing kids, remained a serious procrastinator, been faced with problems I'd never excepted to be faced with, lost friends, re-learned to play clarinet, made color guard, and probably a lot more amazing things that I can't remember right now.
To sum it up, I LOVE Freshman year. Sure, we all have our ups and downs and complaints about everything but it's all cool.
I love everything high school has to offer and I love how much I've learned. Hopefully, the next 3 years will be just as amazing.
Sorry, I don't have any complaints. I LIKE B-Ville and it's small town charm. I LIKE the stupid people I'm faced with and the problems they bring. I LIKE silly trends. Hey, maybe that's just me but this is my blog so I dun care XD

I'm going to school now. EOCTs today! ohhhboy. That is one thing I DO NOT LIKE.

I preach too much

...in a desperate attempt to BETTER our world. but no one is ever around to listen. So here, have a blog. Read it if you want, ignore if you want, do what you want, I don't care.

Look in the mirror and ask yourself "who am I?" if you can come up with a accurate answer, good job. If you can't, well maybe this blog is for you.

I'm sitting back laughing as my classmates destroy their lives bit by bit. To me, I find it humorous. People beating each other up over "talking crap" about your former best friend who dated this guy you knew through another friend who you got in a fight with last year over who liked Bring Me The Horizon more at a concert where this really hot guy stared at your best friend who you don't talk to anymore. Dumb, yes? That's what I'm getting at!
People getting into drugs thinking it'll make them look cool and suddenly all their problems will just vanish. When in reality they are just too weak to deal with what is going on around them.
Sure "it's their life!!! Maybe they like being like that! Let em do what they want."
I'm all for doing your own thing and living your own life.
But what happens when your life starts affecting mine?
We're in high school right now and it's hard to fathom the real world. However, one day, all you sceney piercing crazed [man]whores are going to be America. You're going to be the one out there ruling our country!
Then what?
I think I may feel the need to speak up around that time. But then will too late.
I BEG YOU JUST TO THINK OCCASIONALLY!!!!
Having sex with every guy you meet will NOT get your ex boyfriend to take you back. People thinking you look nice on MYSPACE does not make you a model.
GAWD!
I hate the 21st century.
Outspoken people have to turn to blogs, such as this one, to try and get their point across since no one cares to listen!
Sticking up for you what believe in is overtaken by the fear of losing a friend or two along the way.
Virginity is given up in fear that your "totally hot" boyfriend/girlfriend is gonna leave you. Ha!
Failing school is not cool! "hahhh I made a 20 math test! That's lower than yours! hahahahah"
Stop talking....
What are you gonna do once your day isn't planned out for you anymore? You don't have classes you have to go to, you don't have parents telling you when to go to bed, and you're totally on your own?
Drugs 24/7? Whoring yourself out to a different guy every night?
Cool. If that's the way you want to live, so be it!

WHERE HAVE ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE GONE?!

I'm tired of meeting "original" people! I want someone who is REAL!!!! Someone who will just tell me what's on their mind and not sugarcoat it. I want leaders! I want people willing to take a stand! I want people who firmly believe in things and stand for SOMETHING!!!

Please please please stop throwing your life away!!!!!!!!
You're so much better than you give yourself credit for.
We all have bad days; there are cures other than drugs.
Smile once in awhile.

Something I need to realize...

the way people live, does not affect my life.
I hate when people tell me what I'm doing is lame or they think I should be living differently, etc.
Well when I rag on people for the choices they make that I think are bad, I'm pretty much being a hypocrite.
I call people fake just because they like something different now. I lose friends over the fact that they are "copying" others.
Of course, someone taking words out of your mouth and trying to make them sound original is annoying as hell but some people are like that.
We are merely teenagers. No matter how much we want to think we're more than that, in all honesty, we're not. We're all just placed in a group of confused people struggling to find themselves.
Some will mature faster than others, some will get straight A's and know exactly where they are going with life, some will conform, some will rebel, some will do some drugs, some will choose otherwise, some have no idea who they are yet, and so on.

The past two books I've read, have taught me a lot.
[If you haven't yet, you should read The Perks of Being a Wallflower and To Kill a Mockingbird at some point in your life.]
They taught me: there is no such thing as a bad person, just a person that requires a bit more understanding then others. We all have bad days, we all make mistakes. At least once in a lifetime, you will travel in the wrong direction and no one other then you can fix that. Place yourself in another's shoes before you judge them. Learn about their past, family, and what they are currently dealing with.

Everyone is going to change a million times.
People are going to like the same thing as you.
Everyone will make mistakes.
People will disagree and try to change you.
Being yourself does not mean that you're the complete opposite of everyone else.
Being yourself means that you're who you are and like what you like and have the power to overcome others' opinions.

this is directed towards girls

I wish more girls would realize that...

...he doesn't "love" you, he just wants to sleep with you
...your at-home piercings look ridiculous
...you're not original, you're just fake
...how many guys you sleep with or date, does not determine who are as a person
...if you're a slut of COURSE all of the hot guys are gonna hit on you. But going back to my first statement,well, you get it I hope.
...posting a half nude picture of yourself and having all the guys think you're "beautiful" is not actual beauty
...wearing your anti-war save the planet shirts is doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to stop the war OR save the planet. It's just a fashion trend! Actually take action if you care about it!
...you are not a hippie just because you like the peace sign. Yet again, just another trend.
...writing on your shoes does not make you grunge
...when going to meet a new guy and "hoping nothing happens" is a lie. Nothing will happen unless you want it to happen. It didn't "just slip"
...you're fat because you choose to be fat
...you shouldn't expect others to feel sorry for your mistakes
...crying at school is not cool. Everyone realizes you're just wanting attention.
...you shouldn't pierce your lip in class. Your boyfriend will dump you and others will think it's hysterically funny. [everyone should know who that one is directed towards]
...people aren't jealous of you, they just think you're retarded


That's all for now. Although I'll probably add more later
XD

-sigh-

Dear School,
I'm too tired to do homework.
Sorry